16 Full Weeks, 1 more pound lost! That brings me to a total weight loss of 4 pounds. Even though I had my bad day, I still lost a pound this week. And more than that, I learned so much this week. This process is about me changing the way I live. I have been thinking of all the things that will change for me as I continue to eat healthier, exercise, and lose weight. Here is a list of what I came up with:
1) I will feel more at peace with myself and with God.
2) I will be more confidant in who I am.
3) I will have more energy and ability to play with Lucas and be a good mom to him.
4) Clothes I like might actually come in my size.
5) I will be able to go rollerskating with Brycen.
6) My health will be so much more improved.
7) I will be able to dance again.
8) I will be able to fit into chairs better without squeezing in and feeling so uncomfortable and humiliated.
9) I will be able to move around more freely.
10) I will be able to run better.
11) I will have kept the promises I have made to myself, to God, and to my family.
12) My husband might actually be able to carry me over the threshold. Always wanted that.
As I was thinking of these things I realized that even though I have only lost a few pounds now, how I think of food has changed. I have more self control and I am realizing that food does not make me really happy. I can enjoy it without letting it be what I depend on to make me happy. Because really, it doesn't make me truly happy, it makes me miserable when I overeat. One day this week I picked up some hot chicken for dinner. I hadn't eaten very much so far that day and was hungry, so my impulse was to grab a piece of chicken out of the bag before I had even got it into the car. Normally I would have devoured it, but I thought "it's not time to eat yet, I am hungry, and dinner is soon, I can wait." I know that is a simple concept, but having the patience and being able to wait has become something I just didn't do. But now, I can. Now, I did it. I am so proud of myself. And I am not afraid that I will not be able to keep doing it. I know I can, I am, and I am so excited for the way my life is headed. I just can't describe the feelings I have had this week. I am just so happy, really happy. And it's not the food talking. I can do this. Finally being under 300 again feels good. I know there isn't a HUGE difference in 299 verses 300, but to me it means something.
Thank you so much, all of you. Your encouragement through my rough patches has made a big difference to me! It is so wonderful to share my journey with you.
You are amazing! So excited for you! You BETTER feel awesome after such a great week. I read something on Pinterest and it's inspired me to eat more healthily this week, "Eat to live, don't live to eat". I realized how much time of my day I spend thinking about my next meal! I don't know if that will help you but it helped me change my perspective a little.
ReplyDeleteYou are great, Tanya! Cheering you on!!