Starting 33 Weeks

So after an excellent week of making every single workout and listening to my body and not overeating I feel really great. I met my first weight goal of 289 this week on Thursday and Friday! Boy was that amazing! I was even 289 at the Doctors and at my sister-in-laws! Loved seeing that! So you can imagine my disappointment when stepping on the scale for my official weigh-in and I was back up to 293!! What??!! I was pretty freaked out at first, and yes I was really embarrassed. But, I am not ashamed. I worked really hard and am confident that I did the best I could this week. I know there are many explanations/reasons why it could be that I am up 5 pounds in just 2 days, and I know it wasn't b/c of skipped workouts or overeating. So, I am happy with where I am at. (and truthfully, inside I am still claiming 289!!)
   I learned such an important lesson this week, with my heart being crazy and my weight going wonky. My behavior is the most important part of this process. And the coolest thing is that I didn't turn to eating to deal with the stress of it all! This morning when I was so upset I walked to Church instead of driving in order to get those endorphins pumping and to release the tension. And you know what? It worked. It usually takes me 15-17 minutes to walk to church, and I made it there in 13. That's right! I am improving and changing just bit by bit. 2 weeks ago we measured for the start of the Les Mills Pump 90 day challenge. Since then I have lost 2 pounds (if you put in the 289 it would have been more but I used 293), 1 inch off my waist and 1% body fat! Look at that!
    So life isn't fair sometimes and doesn't make sense, does that mean I just give up? It used to. But not this time. I have so much to live for and I have accomplished so much. The scale will HAVE to show my progress eventually even if it didn't today. So for this week, continue to do my workouts and continue to listen to my body and not overeat. As one new edition= get more water! I have not been drinking as much as I need to and that is totally something I know I can do this week!

     *As I side note I was totally humiliated to report today. I didn't want to. But I promised and I did it. I can keep my promises, even when it's hard. Thanks so much for listening/reading/supporting. You all are so important to me!

-Tawn 

Into 32 Weeks

31 full weeks down, and my weight is the same this week. It was a really bad week for eating for me. But a really great week for exercising, did my workouts, swapped one day out, and overall was happy for that. I am so grateful I did my workouts or else I know my weight would have skyrocketed from what terrible eating it was for me. So the focus for this next week is the eating. Really keep a better eye on it. Today was good. I can do it again! This staying the same weight is rough, but I am grateful for not going back up. I just know to see progress I'm really gonna have to pump it up this week. So feel free to hammer me with lots of encouragement and tough love, I need it!!!

Into Week 31

2 more pounds lost this week! Bringing me back down to the lowest I've been since I've started. That 292 just gives me a hard time! I have also lost an inch in my waist and hips and bust and so that is very good! I made my weekly goals of "no missed workouts"! I exercised everyday this wee. It felt so great. My eating is getting better. Slowly but surely I am eating less and less each day, just naturally. That's how I want it to be. I know if I feel deprived or if it is too intense I won't be able to stick with it. So I am counting on the slow and steady to win my race!
    So this week's goal really is to keep up with my workouts. The Beachbody Workouts are doing so great for me. I am amazed at how well they are able to design the program so it works your body perfectly. On the videos they always push when I feel like I can push and take a break just when I need it. The layout of what workouts to do when are so perfectly timed that I feel like I am being challenged, getting good variety, and my body isn't too sore or not sore enough (meaning I'm not feeling any change).
    Doing great. No big jumps down this week, but that's okay.
So keep with my workouts this week and eat well for my body!

--And Happy Mother's Day to all you wonderful mothers out there!

-Tawn
P.S.  My graduation was great this week and most of you have seen my facebook photos! Thanks for the encouragement!

Starting Week 30

Well here I go into week 30. Things these past couple of weeks of been interesting for me. A lot of soul searching and a lot of eye opening experiences. Also feel like I need to be more honest with myself. Truthfully it's hard to post every week when I'm not losing weight every week. But part of this process for me is being more honest with myself and others. So, my new goal is to not miss posts. Even when I'm out of town, even when I've not lost any pounds, keep posting, keep trying.
    So my weight is around 294, not bad, but still not moving like I wanted it to. And I think that's the point, I wanted to do this my way, and it's taken quite some time for me to really let go of my way and do it the way the Lord wants me to. And the first step for me here is HONESTY. Be honest with my body. Listen to it. Fuel it not OVERfuel. When I've had enough to eat my body does and will tell me when it's had enough. LISTEN. No crazy weird diets or weird foods. Just LISTEN and try to do those things I have been taught. Eat the right amount of proteins, fats, and carbs for what my body needs and then listen for when I have had enough. That takes real honesty. And I know that is the step I need to focus on. So I will try to be more honest by continuing to post even when it's hard, and continuing to strive for honest. And honestly it might be really hard these first few weeks, but I will strive to be honest and when I fool myself, admit it and keep being accountable. I realized something: If I'm not posting YOU can't know how to help and I lose my support that has been so important to helping build my confidence and belief in myself. So I will keep at it. I haven't given up. I still have 18 weeks and I want to make them the best.
   It's hard not to give up right now, but the great thing is that it's not too late. I still have more time. I know that I could have done better these past 29 weeks, but I can't change those. But, I still have 18 more and I want to move forward so at the end of the 48 weeks I can feel proud of myself. There is still time, but I can't waste anymore. I need to move forward and not let the past defer me from my goals today.
   So no more missed posts. And try for more workouts. Honesty in my eating and honesty in my workouts.

Thanks for your support!
-Tawn