Starting Week 30

Well here I go into week 30. Things these past couple of weeks of been interesting for me. A lot of soul searching and a lot of eye opening experiences. Also feel like I need to be more honest with myself. Truthfully it's hard to post every week when I'm not losing weight every week. But part of this process for me is being more honest with myself and others. So, my new goal is to not miss posts. Even when I'm out of town, even when I've not lost any pounds, keep posting, keep trying.
    So my weight is around 294, not bad, but still not moving like I wanted it to. And I think that's the point, I wanted to do this my way, and it's taken quite some time for me to really let go of my way and do it the way the Lord wants me to. And the first step for me here is HONESTY. Be honest with my body. Listen to it. Fuel it not OVERfuel. When I've had enough to eat my body does and will tell me when it's had enough. LISTEN. No crazy weird diets or weird foods. Just LISTEN and try to do those things I have been taught. Eat the right amount of proteins, fats, and carbs for what my body needs and then listen for when I have had enough. That takes real honesty. And I know that is the step I need to focus on. So I will try to be more honest by continuing to post even when it's hard, and continuing to strive for honest. And honestly it might be really hard these first few weeks, but I will strive to be honest and when I fool myself, admit it and keep being accountable. I realized something: If I'm not posting YOU can't know how to help and I lose my support that has been so important to helping build my confidence and belief in myself. So I will keep at it. I haven't given up. I still have 18 weeks and I want to make them the best.
   It's hard not to give up right now, but the great thing is that it's not too late. I still have more time. I know that I could have done better these past 29 weeks, but I can't change those. But, I still have 18 more and I want to move forward so at the end of the 48 weeks I can feel proud of myself. There is still time, but I can't waste anymore. I need to move forward and not let the past defer me from my goals today.
   So no more missed posts. And try for more workouts. Honesty in my eating and honesty in my workouts.

Thanks for your support!
-Tawn