Week 16

A full 15 weeks. 2 more pounds down, bringing total to 3. With how hard I worked this week I had expected a little more than that, but I am happy with any loss. The truth is, this week I really listened to and took care of my body. And it was the first time that I didn't resent doing it. So many times when I have tried to diet or lose weight, I end up being so cranky, getting headaches and making life pretty miserable. But, it was different this week. I am really happy with my choices, and know I am doing things right now. I am hoping for the same this week. To really listen to my body, and eat what I need to. So, this week I can eat up to 2500 calories again, I think that is a good amount for where I am at right now; and continue with 1 hour exercise everyday. I really feel on the right track this week.

Week 15

14 Weeks Down! I have lost 2 pounds this week, which brings total weight loss to 1 pound, hahaha! I am okay with that. I have learned so much this last week about myself. I worked at staying @ 2500 calories and doing my exercises, but I didn't work TOO hard. I gave a little effort and I was able to achieve my goals. I can do this. Thank you so much to everyone. I know you believe in me and some of you even have similar struggles. Please know I am so grateful for all your comments and your hardwork that shows such a good example to me.
     I know that I am a daughter of God. He has given me a body, and it's my job to take care of it. It may seem simple, but it is a great task. I want to raise my son and grow old with my amazing husband. I need to care for my body and get healthier!

   This weeks goals: Keep doing 2500 calories a day and 1 hour exercise. That worked for me last week so I will try it again, continuing to report every night. I also will work on using other outlets for my frustrations, boredom, headaches, and stress: instead of eating. Prayer, reading, playing with Lucas, calling a friend, doing crafts, cleaning, focusing on what I need to be doing, and also taking time to relax.

Thanks all!
--Tanya

Weeks 13 & 14

Well after a full 13 weeks and getting ready to head into the 14th, I am now up one pound from where I started. There it is. 304 pounds. I was dreading this post and starting to regret ever doing this blog. Feeling like a failure and a bit foolish. I was embarrassed to report today. The holiday eating did me in and now I feel so discouraged. I know so many of you are praying for me and cheering me on and are proud of me and the progress I was making. The truth is, that with all trials in life, it takes time. I have spent at least the last 10 years eating in order to handle stress and deal with life. I can't expect it to take only 13 weeks to change that. Even though I was trying to focus on changing the habits, they are so engrained in me, that it seems impossible. And now, I feel like I have to start all over again. I let myself and others down. Yet, the whole point of this blog is for me to have the support I need to get through it. If I was perfect every week then I wouldn't need help. But, I am not perfect, and I do need help. When I told Brycen that I was embarrassed about my blog and just wanting to quit it, he said that the people on my blog love me and they know me. They know how this has been a struggle for me, and they will continue to support me and encourage me.
So where to go from here?
Well, I was looking at what did work for me: Reporting nightly. Set a goal for the week, do it each day and report about it. So, here goes for this next week: 2500 calories a day-- I did it for one whole week without any mess ups and it was amazing. I know I can do it again.
So, there it is. Here's to a better week! Moving Forward. Don't Give up.
Thank you to all!
-Tawn

Weeks 11 & 12

Up at my parents' house so I haven't been able to update in a few weeks. Things are going well, holidays gave a bit of a set back, but I was up at exercised early this morning and feeling great. Haven't been able to weigh in b/c I don't want to use a different scale, so when I get back home I am hoping for good news! We'll still be up here for a little while longer, so we'll see. It does feel good to exercise! I will check in and update again once we get back home! Thanks all for the support!