Well after a full 13 weeks and getting ready to head into the 14th, I am now up one pound from where I started. There it is. 304 pounds. I was dreading this post and starting to regret ever doing this blog. Feeling like a failure and a bit foolish. I was embarrassed to report today. The holiday eating did me in and now I feel so discouraged. I know so many of you are praying for me and cheering me on and are proud of me and the progress I was making. The truth is, that with all trials in life, it takes time. I have spent at least the last 10 years eating in order to handle stress and deal with life. I can't expect it to take only 13 weeks to change that. Even though I was trying to focus on changing the habits, they are so engrained in me, that it seems impossible. And now, I feel like I have to start all over again. I let myself and others down. Yet, the whole point of this blog is for me to have the support I need to get through it. If I was perfect every week then I wouldn't need help. But, I am not perfect, and I do need help. When I told Brycen that I was embarrassed about my blog and just wanting to quit it, he said that the people on my blog love me and they know me. They know how this has been a struggle for me, and they will continue to support me and encourage me.
So where to go from here?
Well, I was looking at what did work for me: Reporting nightly. Set a goal for the week, do it each day and report about it. So, here goes for this next week: 2500 calories a day-- I did it for one whole week without any mess ups and it was amazing. I know I can do it again.
So, there it is. Here's to a better week! Moving Forward. Don't Give up.
Thank you to all!
-Tawn
"No toil or labor fear"
ReplyDeleteYou can do this!!!! Tomorrow is a new day. I KNOW that you can and WILL do this. In Alma one of my favorite verses says, "And even all this ye CAN do if ye WILL". Decide that you WILL and then you will be blessed with the powers of heaven to help you. I completely, 100% believe that. I want to join you in this, Tanya! I am going to set a calorie goal too on myfitnesspal and I am totally going to stick to it this week. I promise! Let's do this together! I love ya!
I was thinking this might happen to you. I always fall back emotionally around winter and Christmas time, so I try not to compare to what I just did. Instead I compare to last Christmas. I did better this Christmas than I did last Christmas! I bet you did too!! Cori
ReplyDeleteTanya I really think the most important thing is for you to love yourself completely no matter what "progress" you do or don't make. If you have this goal, then great: work on it. But don't for one minute assume that success or failure in this endeavor changes your worth. You are wonderful and nothing you do or don't do can change that. If I could pray for you to do one thing with your life it would not be that you lose weight, but that you discover and feel your intrinsic worth and love every bit of your body and soul.
ReplyDeletethinking of you and still cheering you on! Love your Auntie Kari Wendt
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